For the ones I love and about the feeling to be safe

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Today I want to write a post about something that is really important to me...my family...please hear the song above while you read this...this way you may understand better what I want to say and feel..It is from Kendall Payne "Scratch"

I am totally aware that not everyone of you has the luck to have a family like I have...and I do not mean a perfect family..I just mean persons you can rely on..who you can trust...for me it is especially my mom...I just love her so much...we have no secrets, we tell each other everything...and this is not an easy thing! Because whenever you tell somebody something, you open youself and risk that the other person may hurt you, may not be your opinion or may just not listen...so you always need to trust the other person...and sometimes my mom and I were not the same opinion...we had fights and sometimes she is just driving me crazy...but I am sure that I drove her crazy sometimes too...but she always supported me...she always was there...I think that everyone of you has such a person or a few persons like this. And when you love these persons so much, you are also afraid to loose them..sometimes..just thinking about loosing my mom or another important person in my life makes it impossible for me to breath...sometimes I want to be a child again...when I did not see all the terrible things happen out there...you can call me too soft or maybe stupid and weak, but I am sure that we all sometimes get scared of all the things happen out there...at least I do...and then I am so happy to have persons to go to...who will hold me in their arms...remember me that I am not alone...that it is ok to be scared and that somebody will take care of me...did you ever have this feeling? That no one can hurt you as long as you stay in the arms of that person? I think we all need that feeling once in a while...and I think needing it does not make us weak or unable to live our lifes alone and independent...
If I had not have such persons, I sometimes would not be able to face the world outside...but fortunately I have my mom and my family and friends...I just want to say how grateful I am...and that sometimes my heart is overflowing with the love I feel for these persons...and I think we should remeber that more often...and show it...because we never know what might happen the next day....

For a special friend...and about love and friendship

Do you know the feeling when you did not have contact with a person, who is very important to you? Because of local separation, a fight, a discussion or some other stupid thing? Although the person is one of the most imporant persons in your life and it felt so bad to not know about the other person?

I know this feeling..because I had a discussion with one of the most important persons in my life...and it ended with silence...I was hurt, sad, dissappointed..so I decided to stop writing, calling ...and it was horrible...horrible to loose this important person..moreover when you shared so many things...great and important things...and all you want is go back..go back to that time when everything was shiny and great..but sometimes you can not go back so fast...so you have to be patient..wait until the right moment has come...until you are sure you want to go back. But when you are sure and you go back...it is like nothing else in the world..this feeling of happiness, joy..the deep feeling of friendship and love...the persons who are surrounding us are the most important thing in our lifes! They change us, motivate us, hurt us, protect us, make us laugh, cry, scream...but if we are ready to make compromises, to let the other person in..then we gain something so unbelievable perfect and wonderful...we should not underestimate the power of friendship and love for other persons...they can help us, stand back up when we fell...they can help us to do something we can not do alone...and: What is all the glory, money, success if you can not share it with somebody?

I know that sometimes it is difficult to live with people..sometimes they are rude, loud, they do not understand you..they hurt you...but this is life! I am sure that everyone of us was rude too, and loud and hurted somebodies feelings...does that mean we should reject them? Do we want to be rejected? I think not...

This is for all my friends and of course my family, who help me in every situation..who believed in me when I could not, who motivated me when I had no energy...thank you for being there! Thank you for the faith you have in me and for the things we shared!

But I want to say something to that special person I got back: You are such a special person to me! You were it from the day I met you...and you always will be...I love you so much like I have never loved a person before...I want to share every little detail of my life with you...tell you the most stupid things...make you laugh..and I definitely want you to feel sentimental! Do never doubt my feelings for you and our friendship! I will always be at your side, like you will be at mine...TQ!